The Blog Of Dysfunction

Study Holidays began today.

Studies are going at a frighteningly slow pace. Yet they are going on because I want out, because I have had enough of being a medical student bound to the books with no excuse not to study and because I need a break from the whole medical Establishments for at least a short while. Partly because I have had enough of the hospital smell and sick people and partly because of the horror stories of dying patients, fussy consultants, screaming registrars, and little kids who are counting their last breaths, heard from fellow classmates who are now interns (read underpaid overworked hired help)

I hate being helpless.

I guess there is no escaping the grim reality that most of the time my education will only help me make life subjectively better for my patients.

I wonder what the suicide rates among doctors is, I wont be surprised if it is high.You slog for anywhere from 7 to ten years or more and at the end of the day you end up mostly treating colds and coughs, and those people who really need healing are too taken up by the disease to be healed. I guess they either get callus or use the joy of seeing one totally healed patient to make up for the sorrow of the five who are not going to get much better.

Of course this applies for the physicians, surgeons I guess have a better deal.

Suddenly I am not too keen of passing.:-/